Gratitude

A few days ago I felt so much gratitude towards everything I am and have. My parents who provide me a home filled with love, my boyfriend who makes me feel very special, my friends whom I feel blessed with and all the fun stuff I have been doing lately. Since I'm graduated I have a lot of free time, and finally I'm able to do stuff I wasn't able to do before due to time shortage. Visiting a friend who has moved to a different city, catching up with an other friend, go shopping with my mom. A couple of days ago I was not so friendly to my mom. Probably my hormones since it's the time of the month again, but still. Only afterwards I usually realize how stupid I was acting. And it;s only out of love my mom does the things she does. We have a different viewpoint on some things, and some things about her annoy me, but I recon also the other way around. But still, I shouldn't have acted so childish. It's only afterwards I realize that. I truly love my mom and dad but I don't say that enough. The things I have a different opinion about are just too small to make a fuss out of it. So just let it be. I'm so blessed to have been born in this family and this home with all the things my parents provide me. I'm just grateful.

Ciao!

Ixis

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Job hunting is scary

My job hunt has not really started yet, but I am searching the internet, the newspapers, linkedIn and stuff for vacancies or companies that I want to contact. But, I find it kind of scary. I'm not really an introvert person, but contacting these strangers and asking for a job does make me feel uncomfortable. Like nerves before a presentation, a first day meeting new people. How silly. It's scary because it's for the rest of my life. At least that's how it feels. One year ago my friend was in the same position and I was reassuring her that it's not for life. That a job can be temporary and that she is her own director. She took a temporary job and upcoming October she is starting a job she likes and has studied for. So now here I am, one year later. Graduated and ready to start the professional career. I'm worried that I will not find a job I studied for with my master's degree. That I'm stuck in a classical HR job which I don't want for all my life. Yes, I had doubts about whether or not I would be happy doing HRM work my entire life, for which I decided to do what I want in obtaining my master's degree. So I should stop the wining and go find myself a decent job which I will love, for which I'm trained and which is relatively close to home! :D  Ow my, and now I'm not even started yet.....

Ciao!

Ixis

Adele - Someone like you

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things, I didn’t give to you

Old Friend
Why are you so shy ?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it
I'd hoped you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded
That for me, it isn’t over

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah

You’d know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised , in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight out
I hoped you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded
That for me, it isn’t over yet

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah

Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes they’re memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah, yeah  

Racoon - Love you more

Once in a while I hear a song on the radio that reminds me of 'old times'. Racoon - Love you more is one of these songs, and I would like to share it with those of you who don't know it, and with those of you who also like to listen to it. Fot me it's just one of these feel good songs and it reminds of a summer a few years back, which was just wonderful. It started just at the end of schoolyear in which spring started to turn into summer. The temperature went up, the sun was shining and I felt good (yeah, just like that song!) I met new people and friends that summer and back then this song was often on the radio. Enjoy!

Ciao!

Ixis

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First rejection

A few weeks ago I wrote about my first serious job application. A few days ago I received a notice that I did not belong to the first candidates the company wants to interview. However, they do want to keep my application on the reserve-list in case they do not find an appropriate candidate after these job interviews. It is possible that this just is a fancy no-you-are-not-getting-this-job-but-we-dare-not-say-this-out-front, but hopefully they truly mean this and don't have all the applicants who are not invited on the reserve-list. Well, we will see. My first application is a fact, and my first rejection also. First rounding off everything with the master thesis, and then after my holiday the true job search will start, if something didn't come along before that.

Ciao!

Ixis

Dreams

Dreams are funny things. I like to think that it's not just a chemical reaction in the brain but that a dream truly carries messages and/or meaning from our subconsciousness. Sometimes dreams can seem so vidid! I'm a person who remembers dreams very easily. Everybody dreams a couple of times per night, but not everyone remembers what their dream was about. I often do and it's remarkable to notice what the brain or your subconscious fabricates. Sometimes I'm wondering whether two persons can share a dream. As dreams itself are such complex things it would be great be to able to connect through dreams. Occasionally I like to believe that such a thing is possible. That, when I'm dreaming, an other person is dreaming the exact same thing. 

I dreamed about you again last night. Once in a while you come by in my dreams and we share experiences. 

Ciao!

Ixis 

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Happy 6-year anniversary!

Today, September 5th, my boyfriend and I have been together for 6 years. We have had our differences and even a short break-up, but we also have found each other as friends, soul mates and lovers. How cliche, but often cliches are true! He supports me through difficult times, he is always there for me and he will do anything for me. He makes me laugh and he annoys me from time to time. Meant to be together? Perhaps :) My standpoint regarding to this is you never know, but just make the best of it, as you are still happy together. Hopefully next year we can celebrate our 7th anniversary in our own home!

Ciao!

Got my own signature

I got my own signature and I think it's pretty cool! Got it from the 'mylivesignature' website which can be found here. When visiting other blogs I spotted such signature and I wanted one too. So here it is!

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OMG....

Got my grades yesterday, all friggin 5 of 'em! I got three times and eight and two times a nine, which is actually just amazing! Never thought tho get five grades, and I'm not really sure what they all mean, but I presume I will find out soon :) When receiving my grades I also got some feedback before making the version truly final and official. Some numbers in my tables have to be changed, but in order to do that I have to do some SPSS analyses over again. But I might already have forgotten how to perform these analysis. Well perhaps next week :) Then in october there will be a presentation for the research company. I've already mentioned twice that the only possibility (due to holiday's) is the last two weeks of october. The message back also said two times that it will be deliberated whether it can take place on a certain date in september or October. omg.... No! I'm sorry this is not possible, my supervisors is on holiday in september and she also wants to be there. 

Yesterday was the last day people could apply for the job I applied for the other day. Now, I am supposed to hear something within 5 workingdays. I'm already kind of nervous. I just really hope I will get an interview. 

Ciao!

Ixis