!!*2016*!!

Hello 2016! A new year. Unbelievable how fast it is going. It is such a cliché, but time is really flying. Not only when you are having fun. It is such an effort for me to live in the now. 

I love the quote, yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. It really shows me what life is about. Surely you have to think about the future, surely you have to remember the past. But the only moment you can really influence is the now, today, the present. It is not for nothing it is called 'present'. Today is the day you live, today is the day you can decide to do what makes you happy. You are smart if you do things that will also make sure you will or can be happy in the future, but most is now. You don't know if the people you love are still with you in the future, you don't know if your health is still as good as in the future, you don't know if you still have your job. So why postpone what you can do today? 

I love this, this is how I want to live, but I find it difficult. Because everyday things take my attention. They absorb me and get me stuck. They prevent me from seeing the bigger picture, from what is really important. Well it is not entirely true. Especially all the fuss at work the last few months, also help me to remember this. So I try to live by it. It is damn hard for me, but as often as I can, I try to remind myself. 

What will 2016 bring. Who will know. A new year, new opportunities. Will I (we) make nice trips? What will happen job wise? I finally got my fixed contract. But all the changes for my department will surely get some crazing things to happen. How about my personal life? I quit birth control. Not to get pregnant yet, but I am turning 28 this year, and babies around me do get my baby jitters going. A new chapter in the book of Ixis. 366 (leap year) blank pages to fill (well it is the 11th, so 355 left). What will they be filled with? For the most part it is up to me.

Ciao!

Ixis

Hello 2015!

Hello 2015! Another year went by. With ups and downs, sad emotions but also lots of beautiful memories. And those are the ones I want to hold on to. A new year has started. 365 days of blank page we can fill in for ourselves. I didn't really make new year resolutions, but on the go I thought of one. This year I strive to be my own creator of life. I am the one who gets to write these 365 pages, so let me be the one do and direct it. I strive to be more in charge in stead of being lived by others. 

2015, a new year. At least a full year of work at the company. Yesterday I received my extended contract! A year in which I will visit Rome and the continent of Asia to go and see Indonesia. I am curious what else the year will bring. Hopefully much joy, love, laughter and health and, when necessary, strength to deal with the things life gives or shows me. 

Happy newer everyone!

Ciao!

Ixis

2014

A brand new year has arrived. Curious to see what it will bring. What kind of year will this be? I know that this year I will visit the USA going to New York, Washington, Orlando, Miami and the keys amongst others. Will this be a year I have to search for a new job again? Because my contract won't be prolonged? Or maybe because I decide it is time to find a new job and find my passion?
I want to renew or update my bucket list again. I did make one once. Probably it will be the year of buying a new car.

Hopefully the year 2014 will be one of many high points. You don't have highs without the low points, but hopefully they will be at a minimum. I wish a lot of health, happiness and love for my parents, my family and my friends. Let's see what this year will bring.

Ciao!
Ixis

Happy 2013

And that's it for the holiday's of this (well technically last) year. 2013 has arrived, so a last new years wish! All the best for everyone!

Today new year made me quit sad. Thinking about things I didn't do, things I (think I) miss out on in my life. My job loss, not being able to do the things I want to do. Always looking at things from a negative point of view. An even knowing this, makes me sad.

So a good intention this year is being more positive. Be happy with the things I do have. And if I am sad for things I didn't do, than just take action on it!

Ciao!
Ixis

Best wishes!

Hope everyone had a wonderful christmas. Just a couple more days and 2012 will come to and end. So I want to wish everyone all the best for 2013. That you may find love and happiness and a bit of security in these times of crisis. 

Last year I wrote about 2012 hopefully being the year of living together. Here we are, one year later and I am typing this in my own home :) I also wrote about being happy in my job. Well that turned out a little bit different. Hopefully 2013 will bring me a new job in which I can develop myself professionally. And then let's see in december 2013 what has come of it.

Happy Holiday's

Ciao!

Ixis 

Happy Newyear!

Happy NewYear! That 2012 may bring all of you lots of joy, happiness, health and all the best!

Poem for a New Beginning

When wondering around the internet, I found a blog with a beautiful poem about new beginnings. It's not only fitting my new beginning and struggle at my new job, but also with 2012 right around the corner. Enjoy reading and let it speak to your mind.

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In out of the way places of the heart
Where your thoughts never think to wander

This beginning has been quietly forming
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.

For a long time it has watched your desire
Feeling the emptiness grow inside you
Noticing how you willed yourself on
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.

It watched you play with the seduction of safety
And the grey promises that sameness whispered
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent
Wondered would you always live like this.

Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream
A path of plenitude opening before you.

Though your destination is not clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is one with your life’s desire.

Awaken your spirit to adventure
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.

~john o donohue~

Ciao!
Ixis

Happy holidays!

I would like to whish everyone a merry christmas and lot's of love and health for 2012! That a new year may bring everyone new opportunities, love and happiness. I hope that 2012 will bring me insight into my job and interests. That I may discover what direction I would like to follow concerning my career and that I may be happy in my job. Hopefully 2012 will be the year of living together for my boyfriend and me. It is an entire new period in my live with all related new issues.

Merry Christmas and a happy Newyear everyone!

Ciao!

Ixis