It hit me

Yesterday and the day before it hit me (again). My job is just temporary. I know that. But in the last few months it seemed so far away that I wasn't really thinking about it. But the day before yesterday the subject at work came across about wanting to do an advisory job for a new company. It is going to be like a daughter company from the one I work in now. I started thinking about what the consequences would be for my contract. Because if I would be the one do to this job, will it have any effect on my contract? I don't know the answers but then it hit me that I am already five months with the company, and with each day the end date comes closer. And then what? Can I stay? Well most certainly not as it is clearly communicated as a temporary job. But it scares me a little bit to have to search for a new job all over again. The change is a constant which I have to get used to, but are there any jobs to find? The economy isn't exactly thriving. Worries for now, but also worries for later. We can't predict the future, who knows what will happen and what opportunities come up. But of course the not knowing (for me) is uncomfortable.

Ciao!

Ixis

Sunday blues

Each sunday I have this 'down' feeling about the new work week. Again a whole week of work before two days of freedom. This really sounds depressing, and that is not my intention. But is a little bit of a blues feeling. I don't know how else to put it into words. I think it also has to do with my insecurity about the work and the fact that after one and a half year I still seem to haven't get used to (the rythm of) working in general. Well time to get some sleep and be fresh in the morning. Because once I am there, everything will be fine (more or less).

Ciao!
Ixis

The sporty me

I have been real active this past week. There was a tennis tournament in the neighborhood in which I participated. I have been up and running for the past 4 days and tomorrow I will play the last match. Up until now I lost every single match, but is it was fun playing them. The whether was real good! A little too hot sometimes. But I really enjoyed myself.

Ciao!
Ixis

One year

June 15th. Today it has been exactly ome year since we received the key to our house. It has become our home in the past year. Memorable day, as a lot has changed since last year. The house I call my home, not living with mum and dad (and my two cats) anymore, and a changed job! And who will know what next year will bring. My job is temporary so there is a high chance that I need to find a new job again. How about the dutch saying: 'little house, little tree, little animal'. The perfect picture with a house, job and family. I don't think so for next year, especially the (own) family part is still too soon. But who knows? A lot can change in a year.

Ciao!
Ixis

Primark experience

Had my very first primark experience today! Went with my niece and my mom to Liège to do some shopping. The horror stories I heard about the crowds of people, the waiting lines and the clutter were omitted. There were some long waiting lines for the dressing rooms and the cash registers, but it wasn't too crowed. Of course we went on a wednesday and not a saturday. And those prices! wow. Love this kind of shopping! And all sorts of things. shoes, clothes, home accessories and more. Unfortunately you cannot find primark in every city, but I like to go back again!

Ciao!
Ixis

Portugal!

Hope this is a picture of Portugal, like the description I found with it on the internet says. Because that is what I want to show. A picture which I hope to see with my own two eyes. After some more information from the travel agency and some thinking, we decided that the 2 options left, weren't it. Some more looking and advise from the travel agency led us into another direction, Portugal. A country which is long, offers culture, nature, sun and the beach (more or less a mix of all the things we like in an holiday country). It is a great country to rent a car and travel from north to south or south to north and meanwhile see lots of things. We decided to go by plane and land in Porto, and return from Lissabon. Now the fun part can start as we can decide what to do in between :)

Ciao!
Ixis

When will it be ok?

Am I ever good enough? In my job? In my relationship? I am a perfectionist and very insecure. I want to do it all perfect. For others, and therefore myself. Rationally I feel it will never be good enough. And I know it is my perception of what I think, other people think. But I don't know what other people think. I know I could ask. But what answer would I get? And if it may be a positive answer, I may be irrational and choose not to believe it. It is hard to describe how I feel exactly, but it makes me sad. It is a vicious circle in which I am stuck. I am stuck, but I am also my own key to break free. It is my mindset. I know it, but I don't feel it. So I keep on going having doubts about myself. Will it (I) ever be good enoug?

Ciao
Ixis

Music can do that

Some songs bring me back to a certain moment in life. Instantly. This is one of these
songs.