The influence of events

I am feeling quite restless the past few days. And I think I will continue feeling this way a little bit more. It has to do with chaos and change which has its effect on me. This whole moving thing is really coming close and it has its effect on people. Restless, construction in our current building and you just feel it. Tomorrow I am going to attend a networking day in my field of expertise (sort of), and I am felling sort of nervous, and a little bit reserved. To be honest I don't really want to go. Not so much for this event but all the thoughts and feelings that come (I created/imagine?) around it. Like that I should have informed my colleagues more early about this day. A colleague I was supposed to go with, had to cancel. Maybe one of my other colleagues would have wanted to go? So did I mess up? Should I have done a better job? Now I am gone the entire day tomorrow. No one can check that I am actually there. Can I contribute enough tomorrow? And so on and so on. Yes I am making myself absolutely crazy by thinking like this. But I seem to can't help it. Urgh.. what to do about it? I really starts to get at me. Is it this whole ethos about the collaboration and movement? Or not?

Ciao!
Ixis

Wake me up - Avicci

Some songs have catchy lyrics. This is one of them. Enjoy!

Feeling my way through the darkness

Guided by a beating heart

I can't tell where the journey will end

But I know where it starts

They tell me I'm too young to understand

They say I'm caught up in a dream

Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes

Well that's fine by me

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

[x2]

I tried carrying the weight of the world

But I only have two hands

I hope I get the chance to travel the world

And I don't have any plans

I wish that I could stay forever this young

Not afraid to close my eyes

Life's a game made for everyone

And love is a prize

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

[x2]

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I am moving!

Not moving houses, but moving at my workplace. In the upcoming two weeks, first I'll have to move internally to another floor and other room. Then I'll have to move to another location 10 km in another direction. It is exciting because I think it will be a good thing. But it brings a lot of unsettlement at the workplace at the moment. A lot of stress and chaos and I feel it effects me. Almost all of my colleagues are moderately negative (correct spelling?). And it does not contribute to my work pleasure. Thereby I am having overall doubts about the content of my job. But I am not quite sure if it is entirely linked to the content or this whole moving thing and everything around that. And of course insecurity all over again and imagining(?) things like my colleagues aren't pleased with me and my work after all.

Ciao!

Ixis

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7 more weeks!

7 weeks and a couple of days before our holiday! And hopefully then I can do the same as on the picture above. The last few weeks the whether here has been very nice. Even very hot at some point, but lots of sun. I love it. The summer feeling! Unfortunately the fact that I have to go to work ruins it a bit, but hey, we have the weekends. Speeking of work, I have reached the half year milestone again. Last year this milestone was a focus point for me. As I wasn't feeling sure and comfortable about my work, I insisted of giving it some time before I started judging. These same feelings are here today in this second job. It makes me look back with melancholy to my former job. Eventually I did start to appreciate my former job, but only when I left I think I truly did. You only know what you've got until it's gone, goes the saying. Another cliche which is true. This job is a good way for me to gain more experience and find out what I want to do in life. There are aspects in this and my former job which give me energy and aspects which take energy. The experiences give me the opportunity to learn from them and in a way shape me, so if I have to or want to find a new challenge I can search for one with lots of those things that give me energy. Something I got from reading about job crafting. Enjoy your weekend!

Ciao!
Ixis

Not much

Not much exitement going on. Just work. Yeah... Urgh. Next week I'll have a couple of days off. Hope the sun will shine so I can enjoy it.

Ciao!
Ixis

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I love this song and I especially love this quote in it.