Clarity?

Had my job interview yesterday. Did it go well? Well I think so, but I don't know. Even though we talked for an hour and a half, it is always guessing whether or not you fit in the profile the interviewers want you to fill. So we will see. I also talked to my former boss again yesterday. No clarity about whether or not there is a possibility to work there again. She learned that I found a vacancy in a different region in which the same company is also located and she wanted to put in a good word for me. Well that is terrific of course! But, this siting is 45 minutes away. I don't know if I want this, if I can do this. So I am already getting really nervous for something which isn't even decided yet. But because of the good words which are done for me, I feel this huge pressure. A pressure to live up to the expectations which have been created about me. I don't know if I can. And if I can and have to go work there. Will I like it? And what about the traveling time? Ugh... Thinking rationally about it, I feel such an idiot wining about this. I have no job and no income at the moment. In this time of crisis. So every chance I could possibly get, I should take with both hands and go for it. 

But what the brain says and what the heart says are two different things.

Ciao!

Ixis

Developments, developments... Job wise

2013 is five days old, and again my job hunt is at full blast. Several days ago I received a message from a former colleague who was informing about my job hunt, and outspoke that he and my other ex-colleauges hope to see me again soon. Well I for sure won't argue with that! So likewise. The same day I saw a vacancy at my former company for the same position. To be honest I already put it away as contract-wise positions with a temporary contract are not possible. But the same night a contact I know a bit longer, pointed the vacancy out to me, and made me notice that it was not a temporary position. So it is possible for me to apply for it! But, it's a position in a whole different city. And even though it is the same organization, it is a different region. And every region works differently. So do I want this? But on the other hand, it is about a permanent position. Choices, choices! What a position I am in. Am I really given an opportunity to choose? (Well let's not get ahead of ourselves, but it sure is looking that way).

This week I am also going to talk at a governmental organization who have a vacancy. I think I can almost say out loud that it is a true job interview and not just a 'talk'. I am also going to talk at a company working in the field of sickness absence and reintegration. A thing I (think I) love. 

Then again there is this gentleman at another organization saying they will be hiring in january, most likely for something in my field of expertise otherwise he wouldn't have contacted me. And then perhaps the possibility to get back to my former organization. 

Choices, choices... Even though it is a luxury position, I am really nervous. Where will I end up? And will I do the right thing? Will I choose right? Or don't I get a choice at all? What if all these possibilities don't work out. Then what?

Ciao!

Ixis

Finally

Finally had the nerves to asked my boss about my contract. However, no clear answer. In my field of expertise there are a lot of reorganizations and budget cuts from the government. I am the one with the temporary contract, so adding up the sum seems simple. That's why I want to know where I stand. In case it becomes reality that I have to find another job. Well there was a positive and negative side to my boss' answer. First of all we made plans to sit together and evaluate this last year. Positive: the topic to discuss will not be about whether or not I function. So I take it, it means I am doing a good job. Negative: we have to see what the future will bring regarding possibilities. Whatever it may mean concretely. Maybe there is no more money for an extra employee through the budget cuts. Or does 'possibilities' mean that there are possibilities for me and that there is a future? Next thursday I hope to know more.

Ciao!

Ixis