Canada countdown: 2 weeks to go!

Oh my gosh, our trip is getting closer and closer. Especially my boyfriend has been looking into our trip as we got a lot of pamphlets and our schedule. Me not so much. Of course I am looking forward to this trip. But it feels a little bit like camping, and that is just not for me. So a little bit anxious about not knowing what to expect. Like always....

Ciao!
Ixis

Do as you say and say what you do

It is a sentence frequently said. And it is worth a lot in my job. But apparently I am te only one acting after it! So why should you act the way you say? Or just not around me? Am I 'too nice'? How the h*ll can you be too nice? Am I just not cocky or spontaneous enough? Is that why? It's always the same. Fine! If then I won't jump through hoops any more. I just have to get back into control myself.

Ciao!

Ixis

31 days!

Nope, not a countdown. But my third menstrual cycle. I am really happy with this, because it is nice and spot on the 'regular' time for a cycle. My hair loss however is a disaster. A few weeks ago I went to my practionor and he gave me vitamin pills and minoxidil lotion. My blood work came back just fine and within 'normal' limits. Nice to know, but difficult to find a cause then. A few weeks later however I am having a skin rash which is extremely itchy! It's all over my ears and in my neck. Which are not places I put the lotion on. So it is strange. And it only appeared after two weeks. Maybe I was Alitalia bit overenthousiastic and I put in too much. So now a bit less lotion each aplliciation and a new doctors appointment by the end of the week. Don't notice much difference in hair densityor thickness. But I seem to notice my hair changing as it seems to be more curly. Which I kind off like! But not much less shedding of hairs and no little baby hairs spotted. But then, I am only appling the lotion for 3 weeks now. I do seems to notice some effect from the vitamines to my nails, they seem to become more strong.

Ciao!
Ixis

Canada countdown: 4 weeks to go!

The countdown continues. 4 more weeks to go till we go off to Canada!

You know you are getting old when....

• You feel dizzy after doing only 1 summersault
• You are tired after 10 minutes of trampoline jumping
• Children call your friend (and probably you too) 'you' the fancy way (this one is only funny in Dutch probably)
• You still feel a bit woozy the day after
• Your muscles hurt the day after

Went to jump XL yesterday! A belated birthday presents from my friends. It is a giant trampoline park. How awesome! With my gymnastic past I absolutely loved it. But trying to do some of the tricks I just to be able to do in a blink of eye, made me realize I have become old.... I did try some tricks and still some of them are 'in my DNA'. How cool! But being 16 years out of the gymnast scene (how cool), sure had its traces. Is was scared doing some tricks. Like the backflip, I just was too scared to try. I did it 2 times in the pit. I just didn't dare it on the trampoline. And after my first summersault. I was just dizzy! phew.. Never had that back in the good ol' days. However it was a blast. And I sure would like to do it again!

But jeez, I an getting old!

Ciao!

Ixis

Canada countdown: 6 weeks to go!

It is becoming closer and closer, only 6 more weeks to go!

Change is the only constant

I had this quote once before I think, but it is so true! In life, especially at work this line is a steady base. My work has been really dynamic lately. And looking back, this job has been one bumpy dynamic ride. Just now my colleague phoned me saying she (for 99%) has a new job. For her it is brilliant. At work she wasn't able any more to be herself and evolve. She literally became sick of it. I am happy for her, but a little sad for me. She is the second 'working experience' colleague I had and I she was really nice to work with! My first colleague left after a little over a year because he wanted to go and study again. Then she came, and a little before she reaches the 2 year mark, she will most likely leave. 

Them leaving makes me a bit sad because it forces me to look at myself. The first colleague wanted to gain some work experience in the field. He was still young (2 years younger than me) and finding his professional self. I could very much relate because, as you know, I like my job but often wonder what else is out there. This find the 'else'  that is out there, you have to take a leap. He took one, and I didn't. Well baby steps I did, talking to some people, sniffing out different jobs. But not the big step. But then again, about 8 months ago I got myself a fixed contract. And in the life's phase I am in, it provides me with a little security. You know in case there will be babies. 

Then this girl came around, more sure this was her line of job. I could give her room and time to evolve in her job, she really liked it, our supervisor approved it, and we both were really finding our place in this job. Then with all the changes from last years and early on in this year, things changed again. The room to go besides your narrow job description became a lot smaller. Which for her meant a lot of handing in the extra things she could do. It is a shame because we really had it going good. Now she will most likely go off taking new steps, and I remain seated. Another mirror. 

Change is the only constant in life. A cliché quote because it is so true. I realize that for me change functions as a mirror. Because it makes me rethink my situation. I feel it only impacts me because it should impact me. It should function as a mirror. So I should really take it into account. I am just not quite sure how to proceed and take action for my own. 

Ciao!

Ixis