!!*2016*!!

Hello 2016! A new year. Unbelievable how fast it is going. It is such a cliché, but time is really flying. Not only when you are having fun. It is such an effort for me to live in the now. 

I love the quote, yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. It really shows me what life is about. Surely you have to think about the future, surely you have to remember the past. But the only moment you can really influence is the now, today, the present. It is not for nothing it is called 'present'. Today is the day you live, today is the day you can decide to do what makes you happy. You are smart if you do things that will also make sure you will or can be happy in the future, but most is now. You don't know if the people you love are still with you in the future, you don't know if your health is still as good as in the future, you don't know if you still have your job. So why postpone what you can do today? 

I love this, this is how I want to live, but I find it difficult. Because everyday things take my attention. They absorb me and get me stuck. They prevent me from seeing the bigger picture, from what is really important. Well it is not entirely true. Especially all the fuss at work the last few months, also help me to remember this. So I try to live by it. It is damn hard for me, but as often as I can, I try to remind myself. 

What will 2016 bring. Who will know. A new year, new opportunities. Will I (we) make nice trips? What will happen job wise? I finally got my fixed contract. But all the changes for my department will surely get some crazing things to happen. How about my personal life? I quit birth control. Not to get pregnant yet, but I am turning 28 this year, and babies around me do get my baby jitters going. A new chapter in the book of Ixis. 366 (leap year) blank pages to fill (well it is the 11th, so 355 left). What will they be filled with? For the most part it is up to me.

Ciao!

Ixis

Change

Change is the only constant in life....... It sure is.

Christmas tree

Hello December, Hello cold whether, hello Christmas Tree. Today my boyfriend and I put up the Christmas Tree. Even though in the Netherlands today (December 5th) is Sinterklaas, we already put up the Christmas Tree. Mostly because tomorrow we have a birthday, and also next weekend we have other plans. The time of Christmas songs has come. From tomorrow on I think we will hear them a lot on the radio. It always is a cosy time of the year.

Hopefully it will be cosy at all aspects in life. At work it is quit troubled. Our projects are not going as wanted because ideas about what we expect from each other differ quite a lot. Hopefully everything can be worked out.

Ciao!
Isis

I quit birthcontrol...

Not to get pregnant, but just to get to know my body again without the additional hormones. I quit the birthcontrol pill. On my 'cycle' I was supposed to get my period last monday. Today is thursday. My friend also quit the birthcontrol pill a while ago, and it took 8 months for her period to come. 8 freakin months!!! So I am a bit nervous if my body still 'works'. And when it will be then. I think I feel some side effects allready. My hair feels greasy more quick. I just have to wait and see. But that is hard on me. The more my mind is caught up in it, the more long it will take probably. My friend started again with birthcontrol. But who knows, if it does take a while for my body to get a (regular) cycle, maybe by then we feel ready to welcome a child into this world.

Ciao!

Ixis

Finally some news.... I can stay!

Finally! It took like for ever. But last week I was told I can stay at my job. Permanently! They gave me a fixed contract. Got the letter in the mail november 6th. Waauw, my first fixed contract. A new chapter in my life.

Ciao!
Ixis

still nothing

Regarding my contract at work I still don't know a thing. each time there comes a story or an argument why it is not clear yet. And each time there comes a promise (of some sort, from someone). And each time, this promise is broken again. First I would hear it before I went on holiday.When I came back, no news. Than it was going to be spoken about past thursday. But the agenda was already to full and people could not prepare themselves for the proposal. So it will be discussed next week they say. So they say..... because next week is a holiday week and the director of my company is not present. So I am positive it will not be addressed this Thursday. And what can I do about it? absolutely nothing. The only thing I can do is look outside this company for a job. Even though I want some security because I want to continue in life, I have to take into account I won't get that security here. Too bad.....

Ciao!

Ixis

Home sweet home

And then I am back again. Can't believe how fast the past couple of weeks have gone! Well actually, when I was in Indonesia, it felt way longer. Which was very nice. But now that I am back again. The week literally flew by. and back home it is cold, grey, flat and everything. I am back in the 'back home blues'. I always have that when I come back from a wonderful holiday. Because that was it, wonderful. We saw so many things! The crowded city of Jakarta, Yogyakarta with the beautiful Borobudur and Prambanan, the Merapi (and all the Muslims singing), the Komodo islands, the snorkling, the Komodo dragons, waking up with the dolphins, the giant bats at night. Sleeping outside on the boot. And beautiful Bali, with the wonderful temples, the great tour guide who showed us Bali at a speed of 40 km per hour, the vila's with the outstanding views. And I think I am forgetting half of the rest. It was wonderful. A real great experience, which left lots of laundry. I had yesterday and today still off to do all that stuff, but tomorrow for me the normal life also starts again. It always makes me a little sad. Which actually is a good thing, because it shows me how much fun I had and how blessed I am to go out and see the world. Of course I am happy to be back home safely, but I had such a wonderful time, it is ok to be a little sad that it is over. 

Ciao!

Ixis