Sh*t

Well, it turns out my contract will not be prolonged. So in 2 weeks I will be unemployed.

Nervous

Today it's been exactly one year since I got hired. Tomorrow I will find out whether or not I may stay. So to be honest, I am quite nervous. On the one hand I feel confident as my boss and I did not have to talk about whether I function or not (compliment?). But on the other hand, socio-economic circumstances makes a fucture in this fiel very unsure. Well, we will see I guess.

Ciao!

Ixis

November 11th

Today it is November 11th. Where I am from it is the opening of a season which I don't even know has a name in English. It is 'vasteloavend'. And in Dutch we call it 'Carnaval'. But it is nothing like the English word carnival. vasteloavend is a three day's party in February, but November 11 (11-11) is the opening. People dress up funny and have a lot of fun.

The history of this feast comes from religion. Before Easter when we remember the resurrection of Jesus there is a period of fasting for 40 days. Before this period starts people enjoy for the last time all those things they cannot do during the fasting period. As everyone of these holiday's (think Christmas and made up Santa Claus by Coca Cola), vasteloavend has become commercialized(?) into a three day feast of dressing up, drinking beer and singing songs in dialect.

Ciao!
Ixis

Finally

Finally had the nerves to asked my boss about my contract. However, no clear answer. In my field of expertise there are a lot of reorganizations and budget cuts from the government. I am the one with the temporary contract, so adding up the sum seems simple. That's why I want to know where I stand. In case it becomes reality that I have to find another job. Well there was a positive and negative side to my boss' answer. First of all we made plans to sit together and evaluate this last year. Positive: the topic to discuss will not be about whether or not I function. So I take it, it means I am doing a good job. Negative: we have to see what the future will bring regarding possibilities. Whatever it may mean concretely. Maybe there is no more money for an extra employee through the budget cuts. Or does 'possibilities' mean that there are possibilities for me and that there is a future? Next thursday I hope to know more.

Ciao!

Ixis

November

Ugh.. It's november and I am starting of this month by being sick. Well not real sick, it is just a nasty cold. Even though I got a flue shot to protect myself from it. Well it is what it is. 

The end of my contract is coming up real soon. But I still haven't had the courage to ask about it. Each day I am saying to myself to ask about it but every time I don't. 

Ciao!

Ixis

Back to work

After having had a week off, I have to get back to work tomorrow. I'm a bit anxious for all the things that are waiting for me like e-mail, different questions, projects etc. We will see. Tomorrow will be month number twelve already! After november I will be working there for a year.

*update 21:54*
already peaked in my e-mail, and within just this week I got a hundred mails. For some this may not may be much, but thinking that almost every e-mail leads to an action, and all the things still waiting for me it's a lot. Especially knowing that with the busy day tomorrow I won't be able to start on it at all.

Ciao!

Ixis

Memories

Sometimes they just pop up. Through sounds, smell, dreams or things like that. It triggers a memory. For me it immediately brings me back to that point in time in which the memory was created. Usually bringing up this feeling of melancholy. Don't always know wheather it makes me happy or sad.

Ciao!
Ixis